Category Archives: aging

Hollering

A few days ago I started to write this ‘H’ post about hope. My intent was to incorporate healing into the mix. Look, it’s not like I don’t know that people can only take so much raw truth and pain … Continue reading

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Grief. And Guilt.

G is for grief. And it’s also for guilt. If I had been a better wife, if I had loved Jack more selflessly, more deeply, might I have prevented his brain from developing Progressive Supranuclear Palsy? Is it possible that, … Continue reading

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Forgetting

Forgetting our past is terrifying. Our experiences, our memories are who we are, how we identify ourselves. Part of the progressive supranuclear palsy from which Jack suffers is dementia. But, not the loss of memory associated with Alzheimer’s disease. No, … Continue reading

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Death

D is for death. Not Jack’s death. Ultimately, that will be his with which to deal. I want to talk today about my own death, and the 70% chance that I will die before Jack. That’s the statistic. 70% of … Continue reading

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Bitter

“Woman’s virtue is man’s greatest invention.” Germaine Greer Four years ago – when Jack began falling, when I first noticed the tremor in his left hand, when his vision began to deteriorate faster than the VA could order him new … Continue reading

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Advice

Since Jack was diagnosed with Progressive Supranuclear Palsy, an un-treatable, progressive, and ultimately, fatal disease, everyone has advice on how to cure him. Well, everyone but every single medical personnel. The advice of the neurologist was to get his affairs … Continue reading

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Catch 22

A lot of people think the Veteran’s Administration is an unwieldy bureaucracy set up to help veterans. In my experience this is true of most of the individuals who work at the VA. But the organization itself is set up … Continue reading

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