Category Archives: Pamela Foster

Opioids

This week has been a series of medical challenges.  The dog pooped blood. That’s never a good sign. Two trips to the veterinarian and an empty check book later, Nickie is on the mend. The very hour the dog’s symptoms … Continue reading

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Nebulous

Webster’s dictionary gives these synonyms for nebulous – vague, ill-defined, unclear, hazy, uncertain, indefinite, indeterminate, imprecise, unformed, muddled, confused, and ambiguous. When people ask me how I’m doing as Jack’s caregiver, instead of my usual answer of ‘okay’, or ‘not … Continue reading

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Love and Stripper Poles

This past Thursday evening was the last free concert-on-the-bay of the season. Jack and I attended all but one of these events. There were a slew of logistical challenges when he moved from the walker to the wheelchair. A lift … Continue reading

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Very Interesting

Jack The photo is of Jack in happier, though no less interesting, times. This morning was interesting. The dog ate Jack’s hearing aides. Not the batteries, thank God, but the little, grooved flesh-colored pieces of plastic and technology are now … Continue reading

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Grief. And Guilt.

G is for grief. And it’s also for guilt. If I had been a better wife, if I had loved Jack more selflessly, more deeply, might I have prevented his brain from developing Progressive Supranuclear Palsy? Is it possible that, … Continue reading

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Forgetting

Forgetting our past is terrifying. Our experiences, our memories are who we are, how we identify ourselves. Part of the progressive supranuclear palsy from which Jack suffers is dementia. But, not the loss of memory associated with Alzheimer’s disease. No, … Continue reading

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Bitter

“Woman’s virtue is man’s greatest invention.” Germaine Greer Four years ago – when Jack began falling, when I first noticed the tremor in his left hand, when his vision began to deteriorate faster than the VA could order him new … Continue reading

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Advice

Since Jack was diagnosed with Progressive Supranuclear Palsy, an un-treatable, progressive, and ultimately, fatal disease, everyone has advice on how to cure him. Well, everyone but every single medical personnel. The advice of the neurologist was to get his affairs … Continue reading

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Mother’s Day Musing

There are those who believe in reincarnation. If so, I have returned again and again to the coastal land between Freshwater Lagoon and Richardson Grove in what is now northern California. Each lagoon offers fog-wrapped memories of nights under stars. … Continue reading

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Leap Frog

  For years I woke up every day with at least one character and story line flowing freely through their brain. A day of not writing left me itchy mentally, angry at what had been lost because I could not … Continue reading

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